I refuse to believe that mid-March is already knocking on our door. This winter was our first in nearly 5 years living in Miami, which I was sort of looking forward to, but without regard it seems to be moving on as quickly as it arrived. In contrast to how quickly winter as fleeted, I think I often fail to realize how fortunate I am to be able to live at such a slow pace compared to how my life was a year ago. I used to stress about finding enough time or energy to accomplish anything else outside of work, whereas nowadays, my day to day routine usually consists of a 30 minute workout, working on my blog or YouTube channel, catching up on emails, and teaching for 1 or maybe 2 hours a day.
Despite the life of leisure I’ve enjoyed lately, it has left me thinking a lot. Thinking about questions to which my response is always uncertain. I can’t begin to tell you how many times I’ve responded “I don’t know” to questions asked in regards to “what’s after Italy?”. I don’t intentionally respond this way to keep information hidden as if I don’t want to share information with family or friends, but because at this point in my life, the answers aren’t as clear as I would like them to be.
Over the last year, deciding to come to Italy was the most concrete plan we have had since last year. Everything else Jared and I do are decisions we make day to day. Hell…I think we are even going skiing this weekend and that was just decided a couple nights ago with plans still unmade. This is what I mean.
As I reflect on our 8 months abroad, in some ways, I feel like I’ve lost bits and pieces of who I am, or who I thought I was. I no longer crave putting on or buying new makeup like I used to. My wardrobe has gone from a closet full to literally 4 shelves of the same pants and long sleeved tops I wear on a daily basis. It’s challenging. My blog has gone from starting as a style blog to a lifestyle/travel blog, because I feel like I have more to contribute to in those areas than just what I’m wearing and the latest trends…because there are more important things than that.
I can’t quite figure out if I am truly happy living this minimal lifestyle or if these materialistic things are what I need to keep my heart happy. I have been literally living out of a suitcase for almost a year now. I feel like I’ve been doing this long enough to know if it’s for me or not, and yet I’m still indifferent. Part of me hates it and part of me loves the feeling of owning less possessions. Where would you stand?
On another front, I’m still sick, which I have been since last week (another sinus infection). Outside is starting to feel more like spring, although the mornings and nights are quite cold and the afternoon unmistakably warm. Rome…make up your mind!
The above pictures were taken right before the Rome Bloggers meet-up I hosted at The Beehive last weekend. I’m thinking of writing a post specific to Rome Bloggers next and introducing you to this passion project I’ve been working on so diligently since October.
Hope you are all well!
Remember…”the best gift you can give yourself is a lifetime of adventure“.
All my love,